Wow. Have you all heard of the word epiphany? Do you know what it means? Have you ever truly experienced it? Well I have. Finally I have experienced what it truly means to be hit square upside the head with reality so hard that you cannot deny the reality any longer. So... if you'll bear with me, I think I'd like to share something with all of you. Please know that this share is not for sympathy, but because I care and I think you could all learn from my mistake. Or at least I hope that at least one person does. Because that would make this post worth it then.
Very few know this, but I have A LOT going on in my life. I have for quite some time. And for the most part I usually keep on top of things. But there are times that things get away from me when outside forces take hold and I am no longer in control of my schedule or what my daily life entails. Trying to keep up with work. One daughter who is in the hospital 99% of the time, and another 19yo who I try daily to be the best parent I can be for her.
Trying to be there for my friends who need me, those who seem down or don't realize just how awesome they are. Still recovering from my two surgeries two months ago. And all the while in this whirlwind I end up spreading myself incredibly thin. And I really thought up until about an hour and a half ago that I was doing a really good job of holding it together. But you know what... I'm not. Not at all. I just came down from a major panic attack and what's worse is, I am not even sure what triggered it.
For days.. no weeks.. okay, more like months now I haven't been sleeping well. Maybe a couple of hours here or there. But it's rare that I will get more than a few hours in a stretch of time. And it's occurred to me that I am NOT taking very good care of myself. At. All. I don't think I have been for some time. And the reason I'm sharing all of this is because I don't want you all to make the same mistakes I have been.
Don't wait for it to happen to you. PLEASE take care of yourself. You are the most important you there is and there is simply no replacement.
Nic
9 comments:
I've been where you are, Nic. For a long time. Take time each day to just breathe and be, give yourself a few minutes of peace and allow yourself to simply be... in the midst of chaos and despair we can still find something to be grateful for, and a reason to keep moving forward. Love & hugs, always ~ D
Im so sorry sweetie. Try yoga. Drop stuff. We all have to sometimes and then the stars align and all will be good. Many hugs. Vb
A good reminder to share. Rest, relax and regenerate this weekend.
A good reminder to share. Rest, relax and regenerate this weekend.
When our well runs dry we can no longer nourish others, and we see how much we've neglected ourselves. Energy flowing only outward drains the well, a lesson I learned at great expense many years ago. I'm so happy for your Epiphany. Thanks for sharing from your heart. Love & hugs.
Yes...take care of yourself! So very important...you can't help anyone if you're not well or in control. Some things you can't "fix" no matter how hard you try. Any learn to say "NO". Back off from stuff when you're just spread too thin.
I don't know how much I could add to the discussion because everyone has given such good advice but know that we are thinking of you. Take a breath, take a walk, start a journal; whatever works. Big hugs.
((HUGS))
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