Public Statement to the “experts” of the YouTube true crime world…

To be honest, I’m not really sure where to start. Since there have been so many experts that have come at me starting as early as 1:30 this morning. So, I’m going to start with the facts…

Who am I? I’m Nicole Morgan…

1.     I’m not Heather. I’m not Blaire. I’m not Bleather. I am Nicole. N-I-C-O-L-E. If any of you voice analyzing experts had bothered to do any amount of homework, you’d see that my YT channel was opened in 2011.

So, unless this chick – you know the chick you all claim to know without a shadow of a doubt is me – has a time machine, I don’t see how it’s possible that I am her. Or them. Or whatever lunatic spin you want to put on this. I can just see it now… You know, what… that Nicole girl didn’t say she wasn’t Kanye West. So… by her non denial, and lack of admission, that must mean… *cue a billion little light bulbs going over your heads* ß This is exactly how ridiculous you guys sound to me. 

The claims that I am changing my voice…

1.     I kind of wish I was, but this IS my voice. Squeakiness and all.

2.     I’d also like to give a special shout out to the naysayers in the audience who say they are 100% positive that I am this Heather chick. I especially would like to give some honorable mentions to the ones who said, they can’t be fooled, and they know I am definitely this Heather chick.

*golf clap* You right, you sooooooo right. *stands up and continues the applause* You can’t be fooled, you little Inspector Gadgets, you have earned your secret decoder rings for sure! Please proceed past go, collect your $200 and slide on over to crazy-ville and put up some hotels or some crap. Whatever it is that people like you do.

3.     Apparently, I sound “identical” to this person you all seem to really have a hard on for.

4.     So, since I don’t want to be like you voice analysis experts and ASSume things, I wonder if you all could direct me to your credentials which lay out the extensive training you’ve undergone which gives you the ability to decipher voices to be exact matches.

5.     While I’m waiting for those credentials, I ask the rest of the class to use Google and search Steve Perry, the original lead singer to Journey. Listen to a song. Then search for Arnel Pineda, he’s the person who joined the band, thus replacing Steve Perry. Then listen to one of his songs. Then let me know what your “expert” opinions are on their voices. Oh hell, I’ll make it easy for you… here’s an example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TbKKWmQtLI

Once you’ve had a chance to listen, I’d really love to hear your thoughts. Unless… oh no… are those guys Heather too? *gasp*

 Random side note...

6.     To the lady who pointed out that I was spreading gossip and that ZGs channel was better than that… THANK YOU!!! No really, thank you. Because you were one of the few who seemed to realize that I was giving MY OPINION and had no factual basis whatsoever to hang my hat on. Granted, you were a bit rude and snarky when talking about me, but hey… you kept it 100. And I can’t be mad at you for that. xo

To the highly self-important medical and dental “experts”…

1.     Yes, I did have a dental procedure. And yes, I made a point to say this because I felt like I sounded funny and things like that embarrass me. So, I guess it’s stupid me for being honest.

2.     Straw-gate… I like how several of you pointed out that if I actually had a dental procedure then I wouldn’t be drinking out of a straw. WHAT? A STRAW? Did I say I was drinking out of a straw? NOPE. Was I drinking out of a straw? NOPE. But does it prove how incredibly inept some of you are at being a cyber sleuths? YES, yes it does.   

3.     The claims of, who drinks water like that after having a dental procedure, saying she’d get a dry socket or <insert random complication>, etc.

Well, not that it’s ANY of your business, but I have a medical condition which makes me have excessive dry mouth. I’ve had it for years. In fact, here’s a breaking news alert for ya… I was diagnosed with it a full 2 years prior to the murders.

I know! Crazy right?

Now, since you all are such EXPERTS in the medical and dental field, I’m sure you’ll no doubt go through your WebMD handbook so you can insist that I’m lying about this dry mouth condition, so, I’ll give you a hint. The medical condition starts with an S. I would tell you the actual name, but for being a bunch of cyber sleuths, you guys really suck at doing research. So, I’m going to make you work for that one.

Why is this important? Well, because while a large bunch of you were making fun of me for gulping too loud – because apparently you’re a bunch of 3^rd graders – I would ask you to try to take a sip of water with the left side of your mouth feeling numb and swollen. It’s not easy. And… dare I even say it’s kinda hard.

So, while you’re making fun of the new girl – because again, we’re 3^rd graders – for being so loud while drinking, did you ever think back to the very beginning of my call with ZG? I said more than once that I was having a hard time hearing her. So, guess what I did. Go on… guess.

I adjusted my phone volume.

Obviously, I didn’t realize that I was being so loud. But, hey… props to you guys for trying to pick on someone over the internet. Because, if there’s one thing that’s certain… it’s that being trolls on the internet makes you SUPER COOL!

Now, I would be remiss if I didn’t mention my most loyal little troll who goes by the name of “Jane Doe” < what an original fake name.

1.     Jane claims that I “stuck my neck out there and claimed sh1t”

But, did I? Or did I make a perfectly simple statement that I had seen her before at my gym, and I gave my impression of her based on those instances. I was very clear in this claim, clarifying that I did not know her, and it was only what I noticed and thought. So, I’m highly confused that you think I “stuck my neck out there and claimed sh1t”.

2.     Jane claims that since I mentioned the YT creator that goes by the name of Just Larry – who Jane claims has done a live chat with this Heather chick – it must mean that I am the Heather lady. Umm… Okay? Sure… that could be true I suppose. Or…  and hear me out on this one… could there be a NORMAL explanation? I mean, it’s not like that content creator has a channel on YT, where he posts videos that anyone can look it. But… nah, that can’t be it? Right? Surely, there must be some big conspiracy. Right?

DISCLAIMER: If you couldn’t read the sarcasm in that statement…

IT. WAS. THERE.

So, please use your head and don’t go to this Larry gentleman and tell him that I’m saying he and I are in any way connected. Because we are not. No shade to him at all. I just do not know him. But I’ll tell you what, he’s got a head on his shoulders because he did a live this evening where he said people are getting caught up in drama and not focusing on facts. ß Wow, I wonder if he was thinking about “Jane Doe” when he said that. LOL.

3.     Jane claimed (in a veiled threat) that she reached out to “the real author” and she heard back from “the real author” and she’s willing to post the author’s reply.

Now personally this one was funny for me because since I am the real author, I know who I replied to, and who I didn’t. So, I welcomed for her to share with the class that conversation. But, alas… I’m still waiting.

4.     Jane claims that my YT channel looks fake because I deleted the handful of videos I had on my channel. But, here’s a wild and crazy thought. Maybe I didn’t delete them and only made them private? Huh? What’s that, Sherlock? You didn’t think of that did you? Allow me to explain since you have a difficult time understanding simple words. I did it because everyone and their mother decided that I needed to be harassed in the videos comments sections. Demands were being made by complete strangers who somehow think I need to prove to them this or that. When in fact, I don’t have to explain anything to anyone. Ever. It’s called free will. Look into it.

5.     Jane implies when talking to others that I must not be that famous – a claim which I never made by the way – because I only have a few subscribers. Well, let’s unpack that, shall we?

First of all, F you! How many times has your name appeared on the USA Today Bestseller list? How many books have YOU SOLD? What’s that? Zero times, you say? Well, perhaps you should sit down and STFU. Or… nah? It’s so hard telling what you’ll do since you’ve acted so incredibly normal up until this point.

And second of all, can you not read when it says that account/my account was opened? It was opened in 2011. Did this Heather chick you are so freaking obsessed with know 7 years prior to the murders that this murder would happen? Because if she did… WHOA… that’s like crazy psychic.

But, I do realize Jane that you have this weird fixation with women you come across on the internet, so… maybe you’re just not able to be a free and critical thinker. Perhaps you’re just a little bit too slow on the uptake? Whatcha think?

6.     Jane also appears to not buy the fact that I wouldn’t use this opportunity to profit off of the impromptu live chat and get some book sales out of it. Well, that’s not exactly what she said, I think it was something like… you’d expect a successful author to want to promote her work?... Well, maybe I already do that? Maybe after being a writer for 10 years I have learned more than you on how to promote my books. But, let’s push that aside for a second. Here’s another theory for ya… Have you considered what the reason I didn’t/wasn’t using that impromptu little live chat to my advantage to sell more books might be? Well, here’s a thought. Maybe I’m just not an asshole, Jane. Did you ever think of that? Did you ever think that I don’t like to profit off of things like this? It would be a tad bit gross for me to do that. In my opinion anyway. In fact, if Jane had bothered to listen to the live, which at this point I’m beginning to think she hasn’t because she’s gotten SO MUCH WRONG. But, nevertheless, I never even introduced myself as an author. Never. A person in chat asked Zav to ask me about it. It was literally in the last couple of minutes of my time. I did not go on the chat to promote me, my books or anything. And I sure as shit didn’t go on there to get handed the tidal wave of crap I’ve been dealing with since 1:30 this morning because of trolls like you who think they are owed something.

7.     Jane also says, it looks like a fake channel, not a well-known author. I cannot wait for the said channel to go live and address it. I want to be slapped with facts and truth. All this BS is tiring to wade through…

Now I’m not going to lie. That last part got my attention. I mean, I had no idea poor little Jane was wading through all of those facts and truths and it’s making her itty bitty arms tired. Had I known she was wading so heavily I might just fully pull back the life preserver and watch her drown. Because, after all, she’s been so damn nice to me.

The thing is… Jane apparently doesn’t realize that my career really isn’t in YouTube. I know! Crazy, right? You see, Jane... I write books. Those are the things with lots of words on the pages. Usually starts with Chapter 1, progresses and eventually reaches a conclusion with the words, The End.

8.     Jane says… go live and dispel the rumors.

Umm… okay, “Jane Doe”, let me go live to appease someone who doesn’t even have the cajones to use her name. Hell, you didn’t even use any name. You could have plopped any name on there, Sally, George, Betty Boop. I mean, you gave it absolutely zero effort, and you’re barking demands at me? The person who has a cyber footprint going back a decade, and has been published since 2009? Umm… okay lady. I have to say out of all the idiots who were aggressive with me today, you were by far the most pretentious beotch of the lot. So, you can take your demands and shove them clear up where the sun doesn’t shine. K? Okay.

Now, I’d like to summarize the demands of the masses that started rolling into my social media pages and emails at around 1:30am:

1.     Demand #1:

Go to NKs old apartment and stand in front of it while taking a selfie…

WHAT? Are you insane? No, really. Are you insane? Explain to me how that would even prove anything? Her address was made public a long time ago. Which is how I know where she lived. So, I’m afraid that I’m going to need all of you to go to NK’s old apartment and take a selfie in front of it. So, you can prove to me that YOU aren’t this Heather/Blaire chick.

2.     Demand #2:

Show a picture of me with NK…

Umm… again, WHAT? I literally said I don’t know her. I said I never MET HER. You guys do understand English, right?

3.     Demand #3:

Prove you’re not Heather…

Umm… okay, geniuses how do you propose I do that? By showing you my face? My face has been out there for years. And since you’ve all proven to be incapable of doing an ounce of research, we all know that a selfie, going live or even a video wouldn’t satisfy you. Because then you naysayers would claim it must be CGI. You know because I’m 007 or some insane shit like that. Or whatever ridiculous narrative you’ll convince yourself of being true.

Wrapping things up... Or trying to...

Look, I’m going to be painfully blunt on a few things because I cannot believe the utter lunacy and self-righteous idiots that have been coming at me for the past 16 hours.  

First and foremost, if I have spoken with you one on one and you weren’t a giant ass to me, then this post really isn’t directed at you. Please know that. It takes a lot to get me fired up and respond in this matter, so those who did approach me with politeness, kindness, generally were civil to me, I thank you for the way you reached out to me. I really did very much appreciate how you chose to speak with me.

My takeaways from all of this are kind of important, and something that I ask you all to consider because I have had an epiphany. When I was talking with Zav Girl last night, and was expressing in clear and concise terms that I didn’t have any real earth-shattering information to share, and all I really had was just an observation, ZG said something to me that sort of smacked me clear across the face today.

Zav Girl said to me that it’s a big deal that I was giving my perspective because no one else has ever come forward with any information about her, ever. And in the moment, I had said, well I think that’s part of that mystery to who she is. Because she’s been so elusive that it makes people want to know more.

But now, 16 hours into the sh*t storm of my stupid – utterly stupid – decision of going live for a few minutes to answer questions, I can honestly say WELL, NO FUCKING WONDER!

I think I know exactly why people don’t come forward.

Look at you guys!

I have been hounded since 1:30 am on Facebook, Instagram, my published email address and even a more private email I have, and through my website’s contact option. Literally over 100 people have come at me with claims, demands and vitriol.

So, I don’t think its rocket science to ascertain why people don’t come forward in this ‘group’ of people. Because I have never in my life come across so many self-important, aggressive, and downright crazy people in a very long time.

What gives any of you the right to decide that because you think I sound like someone that it gives you the right to behave that way? I mean sure, we all know why the term keyboard warriors exists, but come on, you guys cannot all think that you are so incredibly entitled to make demands on a perfect stranger all because your spidey senses got to tingling?

Please tell me that you can be a rational human being and take a step back and say… wow, I was acting a bit cray cray.

And if you can’t take that step back and self reflect in that manner, well then… you’re f’ng ridiculous!

Now, I’m going to share a couple of things that were said to me in messages and emails today. I will not be saying who said these things. I am only bringing these two things up because I feel they’re important messages to understand if you are going to continue to be a part of the sh*tshow that is this case, or any true crime case...

Today a very nice woman said to me… “People are just trying to protect themselves and others.”

Now, the person that said this to me was incredibly sweet and very nice. So, I’m not trying to call her out by this, but more bring attention to what I fear may be the mindset of this community. And that is… what does everyone think they are “protecting themselves” from? Because the very insignificant bit I offered last night, was only my perspective/opinion. I didn’t ask anyone to follow me on Instagram, or subscribe to my newsletter, I just shared information that was MY perspective. No one had to listen to me. No one had to believe me. In fact, DON’T believe me. Because if believing me or listening to me means I have to deal with this kind of thing I’ve been dealing with all day, then please… scroll on past me.

Another woman, who again, was very sweet and polite to me, said, “I had …  messages … about your chat with zav last night and when I went and had a short listen- I guess I was trying to hear Heather?”

And OH MY GOD… I have to say… when I read that… I was like YES! Someone who is an actual critical thinker. One who can look at a situation and say, you know what… maybe I was hearing what I wanted to hear. And I’m sorry, but that makes this woman a Rockstar in my book!

Content creators who have fallen into this case… There are very few of you that I’ve interacted with. I usually had you on in the background while working and rarely said much. A few comments here or there. But, I did and do have some mad respect for some of you. In fact, I blindly followed some of your channels because of another creator telling me to. Yes, I’m that easily swayed and just have a tendency to believe the best in people until they give me a reason not to.

And to the few who actually did not act like an asshole and come at me with their keyboard firearm today, I sincerely thank you. It’s nice to know that there are some kind people still out there.

But with that said, I can honestly say that going on that live was the dumbest decision I’ve made in a long damn time. Because this “Watts” cult is ridiculous. And that’s not a reflection on Zav Girl. We’re all responsible for our own actions. And she is not responsible for the jerks who came at me.

To summarize, my name is Nicole Morgan and I was the one who was on the live last night with Zav Girl. However, I made it clear that I never met NK and didn't "know her". I made it clear that I only noticed some flirting behavior with married men. I also made it abundantly clear that I was not trying to make any claims of fact or knowledge. So… how that got twisted I’m not really sure.

If this incredibly lengthy statement is not sufficient for some of you who must have more proof, kiss off. I owe you nothing. If you’re a halfway decent person who wants to reach out to be for other reasons, please do so through my website nicolemorganauthor.com so it can dispel any rumors that I’m someone else other than the person I am claiming to be.

One final thought before I hit publish on this bad boy… this Heather person you are all obsessed with, I feel there’s something you guys need to know. She’s living rent free in your head. She’s not even doing you the courtesy of dusting the cobwebs up in the corners of your mind. She, for whatever insane reason, has managed to set up shop in your mind and you are slowly losing sight of your ability to think clearly and calmly. I mean hell, apparently someone approached a 60 something woman in Arizona demanding answers for the live last night. Does that sound normal to any of you? Blindly messaging a 60-year-old woman and demanding answers? Let me help you… IT’S NOT NORMAL.

I’d also like to give my opinion on a few things I’m noticing as well since I’ll be promptly showing myself out of the shitstorm of a circus ride.

I’ve heard countless creators badmouth a certain creator who I won’t mention because I don’t feel mentioning her in this is fair to her. But, what’s interesting about this person is that I have heard a metric crap ton of smack being talked about her and I have never once heard her utter a single derogatory thing about any one of you. Not saying she never has. I don’t know. I don’t know her outside of her channel. You know what though… I don’t know any of you. None of you.

We’re all just names on the internet. And to be clear, the anonymity you all get on the internet, it doesn’t mean you are ten foot and bullet proof.

So, before you lose your sanity, stop the YT wars over this toxic case. It’s actually sad to think that there were over 100 people that took time out of their Saturday to demand answers from me. Granted, I will say there was about 10 people who didn’t “demand” and acted with a bit of decorum. But the rest… you guys are nuts!

Peace out!